Friday, May 1, 2015

I am a cautionary tale of woe.

I don't know how it got by me.  I'm pretty good about health care. But I really never thought about the shingles vaccine.  Perhaps I didn't know anyone that got it.  Maybe in my mind's eye I am not a little old lady but still in my thirties and still cute as a biscuit.  But I did not get the vaccine and I am now a cautionary tale.  I think that as a public service, they should prop my shell of a body up in public place (perhaps in the stocks in the village square as we did in Puritan New England) and tell people, who are looking at my anguish with concern. "See that pathetic woman. SHE didn't get the vaccine. She knew about it and she has money and health insurance.  It is inexplicable."  And then the on-lookers, will all go "Ahhhh, and she doesn't even look stupid" as they race to the nearest pharmacy for the shot.  I am the Johnny Appleseed of shingles vaccination.  I travel the country (via Facebook) and drop seeds of my woe and hope they sprout and bear the honey-crisp fruit of preventative action by others.

It is not only shingles that has struck its blow, but a family thing that I won't talk about now other than to say that even without postherpetic neuralgia I would have been struck low in anguish.

If I were Ian Fleming, I would title my book, "The Woman Who Saved Me" (The Spy Who Loved Me, for those of you who weren't James Bond obsessed at the age of eight).  Sukey Buchanan showed up on my doorstep.  I would tell you that her being in her pajamas illustrated the depths of her concern and worry but Sukey has been known to just go out in her p.j.s . I've been way too self-absorbed to take a picture of her bad self as she sits next to me and makes me stop working.  I wish y'all could have seen us listening to "Mack the Knife" yesterday--oozing life.  Two old ladies carried away by...

But Sukey is an artist and she gave me some of her work.  A life book, which is a moveable feast of her art.  One is interactive with it. Some paintings that I love.  I know why.  My life is filled with pain and anguish and she wants me to be distracted by beauty.  So she comes every day and sits with me and when I was maniacal she let me run on (How you talk) and then gave my pick(s) from a lovely collection of her beautiful work

  I figured out what she is doing.   She sees me consumed by pain, grief and anger and is applying the balm of beauty to it.  She gave me a lovely avian coloring book and asked me to color ONE picture. I refused. I cried.  I told her she was pressuring me.  But I just didn't want to because I thought I wouldn't be any good.  But she flipped some switch in my brain and now I have all these IDEAS for making things.  I want a glue stick.  NOW.

1 comment:

VixenVillain said...

I hope you are ok with the family thing. Really. If you need anything, you have a billion and one friends (and probably a handful of clients and former clients) who would drop what they were doing to help you. I'm one of those people (not a former client, for those of you reading this who don't know me).

"And then the on-lookers, will all go "Ahhhh, and she doesn't even look stupid" as they race to the nearest pharmacy for the shot." had me laughing.

Take care of your fine still-cute-as-a-biscuit self.